Brightening my Day

We’ve just had Mental Health Awareness Week (18-24 May 2020) and I’m very aware that my mental health is not great just now.

My motivation for doing anything much, in tandem with my melancholy mood, has been pretty low lately. I’ve been pushing myself to do ‘fun’ things to try to force myself out of it, bringing temporary relief at times but overall I feel I’m failing miserably at keeping my head above water. So while the weather is nice today I’m simply spending time pottering about aimlessly in the garden, letting go of the stranglehold grip on my own feelings and just letting the colours and smells and sounds of nature work their magic on me.

We had a lot of rain over the last week so all the flowers are looking bright and plump and the foliage is a really rich green; everything looks sated and content. I notice the old roses I cut back so drastically before the winter are finally starting to bud, and I’m relieved to see the large fuchsia bush by the gate I also hard-pruned almost to the ground is filling out nicely. Not having killed off either the fuchsia or the roses the first year we live here is certainly a good reason to bring a soft smile to my face.

As well as the ‘frequent flyer’ wood pigeons, seagulls and crows never far from sight we also have several blackbirds visiting regularly, the drab brown understated females as well as the striking black males with their orange beaks. And for the past couple of days I’ve also seen a few delicately-tinted blue tits flitting about hither and thither, pale yellow breasts and soft blue backs catching the sunlight as they dart about. Learning anew to recognise some of the childhood birds I now see regularly again makes me smile a little, too.

So in a week where I’ve been struggling to smile much at all without frantically forcing it through sheer willpower and definace against the lingering lure of depression, today I’m finding surprising solace in my garden by simply letting myself be – allowing myself to feel down when I feel down, and in turn feeling powerfully rewarded by the magic of nature’s own remedy helping to brighten my day.

Weekly Smile

18 thoughts on “Brightening my Day

  1. Glad you are finding solace in your garden. My moods for lack of a better way to describe it my feelings have been similar. I’ll take any moment of peace wherever I can find it.

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  2. Those are beautiful. It’s always a little sad when you have to prune something way back to get it under control. But, most things recover, if not in spring, then in the following spring.

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  3. Beautiful pictures there Ruth. I am glad to see such beautiful pictures of nature on your page. However, I am so sorry to hear about your mental health struggles, I know how difficult that can be. If you do not mind me suggesting it, I would advise that you pray to God about what you are dealing with. I know that he can help and he hears us when we call out to him, he is our maker and he cares. A continued relationship with God will help you to find out more about him and more about yourself. He can reveal what his purpose for creating you was, he can reveal what you should do next etc. God is a real guardian and if you seek him in truth, you will find him.

    I will leave you with this bible verse:
    Deuteronomy 31:8 says
    β€œThe Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”

    If you are interested in building a relationship with God, I have a post that can help here: https://christcenteredruminations.wordpress.com/2018/08/29/how-to-build-a-relationship-with-god/
    You can also follow my blog if you are interested in getting continued updates on the things I post.

    Stay Strong.
    May God be with you πŸ™‚

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