Food has never been just fuel for me; over the years my love of eating has been both a blessing and a curse. We all need to eat to produce energy, and enjoying something so fundamental to human survival may be fine in moderation, but not so good in excess.
Historically I am one of life’s emotional eaters; I eat not only to comfort myself but also to punish myself, to soothe my sorrows and to swallow down my disappointments. I eat to find solace in the texture and taste of food, which has inevitably led to a lifetime’s failed struggle to maintain a healthy weight. I feel bad because I’m too heavy, so I habitually eat to comfort myself, and – yeah, yeah, you get the picture…
Sadly for me since I caught Covid 15 months ago I’ve never quite fully regained my precious sense of taste and smell, so I’ve effectively lost some of the deeply-engrained satisfaction of any nuanced savouring of comfort food. Yet still I search in vain for that elusive hit of old, trying this previous favourite and that previous favourite to no avail… sigh!
Life events have conspired to pull me away from blogging over the last couple of months, and the idea of taking part in this year’s April Blogging from A-Z Challenge seems like a good way to try to get back into the habit of reading and posting regularly. Originally I thought of just using any old random words to go with the particular letter of the day, but realistically without a clear theme to work towards I’m not sure I’d be able to keep my focus for a full month… So instead I’ve opted for a relatively simple, if slightly self-indulgent work-around: This year I’ll be posting 26 things about me, nothing too taxing to write about yet still fulfilling the brief!
Ruth Blogs Here 
I stress eat too. Quite a problem for me.
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Describing your eating could have been me. I am exactly the same. I go through good times and bad times with food but I have always enjoyed eating. I am so enjoying the A to Z. I did this a few years ago with a daily prompt. It lasted for a month. I thought it would be so hard but each day I sat down with the daily word and it was easy to create a post. I may have to try that again soon.
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Food is emotional sponge for manyyy i try not to get absorbed…
Lovely of ur mom grandmom to save recipes in written. We al need them…also sorry abt losing proper taste after covid. Hope gets better soon
A to z….http://afshan-shaik.blogspot.com/
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I think you can very safely say that you are not alone Ruth. If we could all convert our excess weight into world wide aid there would be no poverty anywhere. That really makes me think!!!!
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I’m definitely an emotional eater too. I’ve eaten way too many feelings over the past two years.
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Try haggis…
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Yuk! Not for me, thanks…
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Leaning on comfort food is my weakness as well. I hope your senses return eventually. You’re doing a good job with the A2Z.
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I do understand about comfort food, she writes, finishing some after breakfast custard. Tough on the reduction of taste and smell. It can be a real struggle. I know a woman who still can’t taste much of anything. Eating, a former pleasure, has become a chore. Hope you keep regaining capacity.
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