‘Colour is a power which directly influences the soul’
I wonder sometimes why I love being surrounded with colour so much, and frequently the answer that comes most often straight to mind is ‘Because your internal life is so grey’. I choose to colour my world in bright and strong and vibrant hues, almost proving a point to myself that yes, I can do colour, while inside I regularly feel nothing more than shrouded in a subdued, moody monochrome.
Depression does not provide a sunny-day-colour internal landscape, nor even allow for a veiled silvery sheen like muted moonlight in a clear night sky. Instead it smears my soul with thick, sticky mud, soaks my very fabric with foul, clouded misery until the sheer weight drags me down and I feel chilled to the bone, infused with a deadly damp that refuses to warm my sad, aching heart.
But I refuse to be beaten. And so I keep trying hard to bring colour to my life on the outside, in the hope that some of it may seep inward slightly, brightening the edges my dark dull mood…
Mainly TV news channels, occasionally online (proper news channel websites, never social media)
What ‘old person’ thing do you do?
I often moan and groan a bit when getting up off the sofa, due to stiffening joints 😦
When was the coldest you’ve ever been? The warmest?
Where at all possible I don’t do extremes of temperature, either way – I’m definitely a temperate climate kind of girl. But if push comes to shove I prefer dry heat and crisp, fresh coldness to high humidity and miserable wet coldness.
Do you eat food that’s past its expiration date if it still smells and looks fine?
Yep, I’ll generally make my own judgement on the safety or otherwise of stuff I’ll put in my mouth – but I won’t be stupid about it.
What are you grateful for this week?
My new reading glasses – I was struggling to colour in the smallest of shapes with my old ones so realised it was time they were replaced. The very middle of this design was far too small for me to focus on clearly before, but now it’s finally done – hooray! 🙂
I’m not generally a very Christmassy person, but this year I’m trying my hardest to get into the swing of things with a more positive frame of mind, so I’ve started with getting myself a Christmas colouring book to see how that goes – so far, so good! 🙂
I decided to give my gel pens a whirl today, but got so engrossed in colouring in my chosen design I forgot to be careful to leave each coloured ink to dry off completely before starting on the next colour – oops! Oh well, using a little bit of artistic licence I’ve called my final masterpiece ‘Smudged Circle’! 🙂
I haven’t done any colouring in for months – since mid-July, in fact, when we first heard the sale of our London flat was going through, and life has been pretty non-stop round of packing/ selling/ moving up to Inverness/ buying a new house/ moving in/ sorting out household stuff ever since! But right now I’ve got a cold and am feeling lousy, so today I’m just sitting on the sofa, resting and colouring in… 🙂